IB Result

Assalamualaikum. 

It has been two years since i didn't write.

All praises to Allah, my friends and I managed to finish IB.

To cut short, KMB thought me what life is. 

In less than 19 hours, we will be getting a point. 

A point in a form of numbers. 

The numbers that will determine whether the efforts of two years will be paid or not.

The numbers that will determine if we will be leaving or staying in Malaysia.

The numbers that will make us feel excited or down.

To be honest, I AM FREAKING SCARED.

YES I AM.

That's the reason I'm blogging. 

I had been thinking a lot these few days.

A lottt of questions came up from my mind.

"What if I can't fly?"

"What if the makcik makcik ask? nak raya dah niii, matilah akuu"

"What if my parents disappointed with me?"

"How am I gonna survive seeing my friends fly?

"What if.. How... But..."

Argghhhh its killing meee, I'm so dead.

I always questioned myself about the negative things, yet i forget.

I forget to be GRATEFUL to what Allah have given all these days.

Parents, family, health, friends, food, knowledge... MasyaAllah, COUNTLESS!

But that is what we are.

We are al-insan.

And it means - forget.

We are weak. We forget all the times.

In the dua', we always said,

'Bismillahi tawakkal tu'alallah'

Am I really tawakkal to Allah? (it means give all decisions for Allah to make)

Serahkan segala urusan dekat Allah, and you should not be scared.

Have faith to Allah Aizaa!

Because FAITH, 

is not believing that Allah can,

it's knowing that He will.

Anyhow, whatever the result is,

Redha.

Redha.

Redha.

Allah know what is the best for you.

I'm praying to all my friends as well.

Ya Allah, grant us with what is best for us.

Andai kejayaan itu yang terbaik buat kami,

Jauhkanlah kami daripada sifat meninggi diri,

Malah jadikanlah kami hambahambaMu  yang bersyukur,

Sesungguhnya semua itu datang dariMu.

Andai kejayaan bukan yang terbaik untuk kami, 

Kau jauhkanlah kami dari sifat berputus asa.

Kami serahkan urusan kami kepadaMU,

Kau kurniakanlah yang terbaik buat kami,

Dan redhakanlah hatihati kami menerima apa shj pemberianmu,

Bismillahi tawakkal tu'alallah.

If it's meant to be yours, from you it cannot flee.